"You've changed"

"They'll be so quick to say you've changed, when it's really them who aren't growing"

I love this quote. It is so real and so relevant. 

Over the last two years I have had so many people walk into my life but I have had twice as any of them leave. Why? Because I 'change'. 

I would hope I've changed! Over the course of two years, if I'd stayed the same person I would be very ashamed of myself. Personally, I much prefer who I am today than who I was two years ago. I'm wiser, I have progressed further in my career, I have more confidence, I'm healthier and I have achieved things I could only ever have dreamed of before. Best of all, I'm running my own business. 

Now, for those of you who don't know, I'm a very career driven person. I sometimes work as long as 20 hours a day for a multitude of jobs. Over the last year especially I have taken on a larger work load than ever before and set myself even bigger goals- and this means spending more time than ever before on work. While I'm at a point in my life where I'm more social than I have been in the last five years, I also have less time to be social. So while I am seeing friends at least once a week, instead of once a month like I used to, it really is just once a week! 

Sure, I'd love to see each and every one of my friends every day, but I can't! I genuinely don't have the time. I'm busy working, making a future for myself, earning money, trying to build a life for myself. I can't hang out watching TV every single night, I can't go to the pub at the drop of a hat, I can't go out every weekend, go to every film showing at the cinema, go to London whenever I like- you get the gist. Work comes first for at least five days of the week (I try to give myself a break at the weekend!). 

Now thankfully, I have brilliant, understanding friends who definitely get that. They know I can't always see them because I'm busy, but most of them are just as busy themselves and all of them support me. 

Some people can't deal with it. They think I'm too young to be this dedicated to my work. They think it makes me boring and no fun. More often than not, these same people walk out of my life and never look back- and let me tell you, that is fine by me! (If being on TV, having radio shows, attending LFW events for free and the like is boring that is...) 

You do you and I'll do me. Everyone leads their life in their own way and no one should be judged for that. So I'm a self confessed workaholic. So what? That's how I want to be until I've reached my end goal in life. If you don't like it, you know what to do. 

I'm so appreciative of the friends who do support me and understand and while they message me telling me they miss me, they understand I can't always make time for a meal out or a trip to the shops. However, when I do make time, I make it good time. I will chat non stop, engage in conversation, have a real catch up. None of this sat there in silence malarky. 

People walk out of my life saying I've changed, and I'm glad. I wouldn't want to be the same. But really, all I'm doing is growing up. Improving. Getting better. Evolving. 

Are you?

Love from,

Florence Grace